What am I doing here?

Jesus says," Doctor come to heal the sick people, not the healthy person. So was the son of God came for the sinner, not the saint."

Today, I told the principal of the center regarding the homework of those students. My initial intend is to let her know that what subject are those students weak at and their attitude in completing the homework.

I was disappointed by her respond, when I first mentioned a student who is weak, because she responsed like the student by nature is weak, it is alright for him to answer the question wrongly, then straightaway ask who else having the same problem. But, I was intended to praise the student for he is willing to take initiative to come over and ask for help. So, while she tackle, I was like...%^&%$*&^

Aren't we here to help student to improve their understanding on the subject? Aren't we supposed to pay more attention over student who is weak and willing to learn? Aren't we here to guide the student method to study, instead of giving up the answer to them?

From what I observed within these days, the students who are weak and deserved a red-cross is not that they are weak. They are just weak in understanding the context, need more guidance, however. They are willing to learn, they actually can pick up as well as the other students. But, from her eyes those good students seems more important than the rest. Ironically, her good students also get wrong in the same question, and one of the good students is her daughter. Sadly, most of them looking for easy way out in completing the homework.

是时候了……

又是时候应该要专心读书，写报告了……

袁晶琳，你要好好努力！
袁晶琳，接下来的整个学期，除了找资料和讨论功课，其他时间都不可以再上网了！

首先，除非心情真的很差或者真的没事做，不然就不可以上facebook,也不可以blogging!
接着，除非必要，不然就尽量少出门，少花费！
最后，要很努力很努力的读书！但是，不可以把书读死！加油！！！

烂人！！

我知道自己没有比人别人好太多，也知道讨厌别人等于讨厌自己。但我就是没办法接受！为什么已经说好的时间总是要拖了又拖？为什么接口老是那么多？

我知道你也有其他的assignment在忙着，但这绝对不是一个借口！大家都是同班同学，有着一样的功课量，你以为我们不用忙吗？是你自己时间分配得不好，ok?

天啊！什么叫做没有不公平？大家也都是拼着脑袋把知道的在限时里挖出来，那不叫乱乱做ok?你自己不知道搞什么，现在才来读articles，现在才来做，还好意思说不想随便写？！你当我白痴吗？星期二4pm到星期五10am, 为什么别人做得出你做不出啊？又不是叫你一个人做整份，只是一题的essay而已！再说，我连资料都准备好给你了，能乱写什么？

真不敢相信，我为什么还会以为你有所改变！你要混着毕业是你家的事，不要连累到整组人！帮你隐瞒已经是我最大的极限了！如果有什么不愉快的，我一定会供你出来！！！！王八蛋！

说不出的话

新的组别，真的很不容易……

（叹）
跟天才合作真的很累！或许是我自己把自己累坏吧？因为真的很难说服自己完全相信别人……明明知道他们可以做到，但是又害怕反效果（叹）！

是我不知道他们要什么？还是连他们也不知道他们要什么？只是一味的为了寻求刺激在产生许多想法，而我是不是太悲观了呢？为什么每次他们提出想法，我看到的只有失败和漏洞……

好累！好辛苦……我很想支持他们的做法，却又矛盾着这是不是一种对他们盲目的崇拜？纯碎因为他们是天才？然而也不希望这样贬低自己……又是一个矛盾。

我很想说出我的想法，却又碍于害怕拒绝的关系，所以心事变成我的零食……

很讨厌这样的自己，却又无能为力……
真的很想豁出去，不管别人怎么看怎么说……
但是我真的能做到吗？

幸运

今天，上Sport Psychology打篮球。

很好玩，真的很好玩。。。

可是，我的右脸被篮球K到了，还好眼镜帮我挡了，没有流血，眼睛也没事。而且，最离谱的是在我看着球飞向我的时候，我第一个念头是：完了，我的眼镜！真的不是开玩笑地说。

应该是不幸中的大大幸了！

the Bad-est news of the week

Gosh...new semester is a messed!

It doesn't matter with the subjects in the syllabus, but the arrangement! We, student already expect a thesis would be given, we all waiting for the briefing from last semester. But, what happened? Until today! Only the lecturer/the head of department inform us to come out with a 3 pages proposal for the thesis in less than one week time!

Uhh??! What the H you have been doing? Do you think students are like you? a Ph.D holder?

What a stupid officer! Do you think we all free like Uncle Lah? not only your thesis is important, k? Though you are the HOD, a Ph.D holder, a experienced lecturer. However, you still living in your time, which is lil assignments, lil educator to take care.. So, do you expect to compare between your generation and TODAY's student? You are a experienced educator, should you know that is impossible?